How is it Between Us

I feel unsettled. A restless and heavy spirit. Maybe it's because I never settled into my circumstances in the Spring, not aware of God, not thankful. I wonder if the Fall will be the same, and I swallow hard. Something must be wrong, for me to feel this sense of panic for so long, undealt with.

I'm resenting the things that pull me away from the discoveries of homemaking, wishing my other responsibilities drew me as much as taking care of my husband does. I need balance.

Trying to control it all, failing to stop and listen and be quiet. I long to experience God's sustaining, but it's hard to stop looking around at everything else.

I read the Words, but I wish they impacted my heart more.

Praying that they will take hold of my spirit as I take time to quiet my heart and meditate on God's words, home alone on these long summer days. Starting today...

Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10

Marriage

I love being married. It's wonderful to grow and live life with someone you love. There is familiarity and comfort, knowing the two of us are working on life together. Marriage has been surprising to me. I didn't expect the huge gaps in communication that happen from time to time. Despite our completely different personalities, both of us are fairly easy-going. I guess I assumed we would never totally misunderstand each other! But it's so sweet to get to the place where those misunderstandings are bridged.

I'm also surprised as I watch us grow closer and love deeper even in such a short amount of time. I can't wait to see what God does in our life together as time goes on!

I love being married to this man and seeing God stretch us individually and together.

A couple months after we started dating...



Our wedding eight months after we started dating...


Honeymoon to Colorado...


In Mexico during our first Christmas!


I'm so grateful for this season of life!

Hold My Hand

The steps of a man are established by the LORD,
And He delights in his way.
When he falls, he will not be hurled headlong,
Because the LORD is the One who holds his hand.

Psalm 37:23-24

The Beauty of Seeing Things Through

I posted song lyrics in January, so it's about time for more!
Sara Groves' is one of my favorite songwriters.

Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing
It takes some time to see things through
Sometimes things change, sometimes we're waiting
We need grace either way

Hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through

There's a lot
of pain in reaching out and trying
It's a vulnerable place to be
Love and pride can't occupy the same spaces baby
Only one makes you free

....

If we go looking for offense
We're going to find it
If we go looking for real love
We're going to find it

A Blogging Moment....

...as I must quietly oversee my current visitor as they work.

My eyelashes are twitching from lack of sleep.

My stomach is growling because all I had for breakfast was two donut holes and coffee.

My head feels a little fuzzy from insufficient sleep and food.

I'm weary from carrying a squirmy kid down the hall and from lack of sleep and food.

But I do love my job.

And I believe the children are our future.........(smirk)

While that thought may be true, the song still makes me giggle. In all it's sincerity and 80's-ish-ness.

For His Name's Sake

Doubt - it causes me to fear that God will not come through on His promises to keep changing me on the inside and directing my steps and decisions. I'm often stuck there for longer than I should be.

His Word would beg to differ, and with good reason...

Psalm 23:3
He restores my soul;
He guides me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.

Psalm 31:3
For You are my rock and my fortress;
For Your name's sake You will lead me and guide me.

Psalm 79:9
Help us, O God of our salvation, for the glory of Your name;
And deliver us and forgive our sins for Your name's sake.

Ezekiel 20:44
Then you will know that I am the LORD when I have dealt with you for My name's sake, not according to your evil ways or according to your corrupt deeds, O house of Israel," declares the Lord GOD.

1 John 2:12
I am writing to you, little children, because your sins have been forgiven you for His name's sake.

"You Rise and Meet the Day"

Love songs!...Whatever my stage in life, as sappy or ambiguous as they can be sometimes, they're the kind of song that doesn't leave my head for a while. I started listening to this artist a couple months ago, and particularly liked her lyrics on this song and a few others. I'm writing some of it down, just because it's what happens to be stuck in my head today, and if I ramble about song lyrics on a blog, no one has to listen to me if they don't want to. : )

[...]

I'm watching you go, it's like spying on hope
Ever onward with more to burn
Giving your hands and your heart
To the weave of the world, though it fights each turn

But you do not give up so easily
That's how I know you won't surrender me
You rise and meet the day
It's all I need to know.

[...]

And they will know the true and humble power
Of love that made it through the darkest hour
You rise and meet the day
It's all I need to know

---Dar Williams