I feel unsettled. A restless and heavy spirit. Maybe it's because I never settled into my circumstances in the Spring, not aware of God, not thankful. I wonder if the Fall will be the same, and I swallow hard. Something must be wrong, for me to feel this sense of panic for so long, undealt with.
I'm resenting the things that pull me away from the discoveries of homemaking, wishing my other responsibilities drew me as much as taking care of my husband does. I need balance.
Trying to control it all, failing to stop and listen and be quiet. I long to experience God's sustaining, but it's hard to stop looking around at everything else.
I read the Words, but I wish they impacted my heart more.
Praying that they will take hold of my spirit as I take time to quiet my heart and meditate on God's words, home alone on these long summer days. Starting today...
Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10